Since I have been on vacation, I have had plenty of time to think about my life. I have already informed you of some of my revelations. I still do not know why I bother you with my life’s questions; I guess I feel like you give me honest wholesome advice. I spoke with my parents yesterday in regards to my teaching endeavor in Europe. They support me in whatever I do; they just worry due to the distance factor. I also really need to plan if I decide to take this trip. I have my car payment and credit cards that I would need to save up for. Hopefully I will be able to.
Aside from that, I really want to apologize for the last time you were here. I don’t mean to lead you on or give you mixed signals. I have always had a problem with relationships. Even though I want one, I am not sure how to go about it per se. I think I am interested in someone and then when they like me back, I run away. I seem to go for those that are losers and unworthy of my friendship. It is easy for me. For example, you are more educated than me, and your lifestyle is so exciting and surreal. I think I am a little intimidated. You are a great guy with so much to offer, I am the one normally with so much to offer. It has always been me to take care of and nurture my companion, and it seems like you have more to offer than I do. It sounds weird, I know. That is a good thing though, I know you would treat me like a princess. I don’t even know what you think of me though. I know that I am ready for bigger and better things. I see things on such a local level and I need to grow. I know that I would love traveling and branching out. I really want to start experiencing life and I know that you would be of great help to me. If it wouldn’t be too much of a burden! Well, I guess I will talk to you soon.